I can't believe I'm here...
I can't believe I'm here right now. Sitting on the beach in the sand on a blanket, ocean breeze on my face. It's nice, and it feels so good. Nothing is on my mind, and not one negative thought is in the air. It's refreshing. I can feel my body relaxing. I'm watching everything around me and feel myself taking in the scenery. Kids on the beach setting off fireworks to my right, and couples to the left. Everyone's just enjoying their life right now at this moment. I'm looking straight ahead. I notice him in the distance walking toward the ocean waves, crashing down into the sand. Breathing in the ocean smell, sitting on the beach at 8:00 pm feels so surreal.
I can't believe I'm here right now. I'm in California, all the way on the other side of the United States of America. Putting it that way makes it seem even crazier, and the fact that I'm on the coast puts me at the very end of it. It's so breath taking. In this very moment I've thought about how far I've come, and why I should be fighting for this life I want, and to stop telling myself why I shouldn't. I'm smarter than that, I know this, and tonight made me appreciate my life more. I found my medium and I'm ready for this life that was given to me. You don't live forever and you never know when your last breath may be, so I'm going to enjoy everyday and every second that I got.
Tonight I feel like all the evil inside of me left and in return gave me love. Gave me appreciation of the life I have and who I have in my life. It gave me hope that I'm going to be alright. I just got to live and stop worrying about the wrong and the right, just do. All the negativity isn't worth the stress when you can just enjoy the time you have. I'm grateful for what has come, and grateful for what's headed my way. I can't believe I'm here right now.